the other side of things

this break has been great so far, the gifts i've been giving, most of them being ones i made myself(soon to post) were a friggin blast to make, and even more fun to watch them get it.

i finally have a signifigant other to spend it with this year, she's amazing and i can't start on how glad i am to have her in my life. 
really grateful for the presents. teriffic friends to spend the break with. good health and all that.

lifes appeal is really shining through.

t'was the night before christmas

eff i'm feeling pretty heavy right now. i'm full from food but thats not whats weighing me down. it's the fam... my mom had a long talk with my older brother about the patterns in his life and how this one is the same. she said i was old enough to hear this. she also said after that i have to deal with way more shit than he did.... and that i got the shorter end of the stick.

listening to it, every word i already knew but i refused to bring it to light, now it being unwrapped and placed before me. and it hurts,

he took it ok, and he seemed appreciative, which is i guess one upside to it.

because i can't do anything about it, he's impossible. and all i get is a sad feeling.
i want to go up to him, and help, give him a better future, make him passionate about something, give him the strength to give back, gurantee him happiness, make him quit his bad habits, make him the best person he can be, give him the perfect life, tell him theres more to life than this. but he's in another world. i don't even know how to communicate to the other side and that frustrates me to tears.

merry christmas everyone. best wishes to you and yours.

hey whaddya know

i've picked up a new trick this year, the will to run away from my problems.

fantastique!


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breathe...

feel the music... look into your opponents eyes... and kill the floor
it's a shame i forget those steps sometimes.

no bloogering until then. pictures and videoes to all when i get back.

heres something to consider;





sayonara and wish me luck

tick tock

two more weeks until the fight before christmas 3... which to me, is damn right heavy. gotta put in that extra mile to not have any to regret. already i'm getting that exact feeling before i get on the floor when i think about it, then the heart really starts going when realization of it being in less than a month comes in.
i know for certain rye will be sqeezing as much practice time before this goes down too. gotta love how synergy works.


on a deeper note, it's peculiar to see how these walls that are built up from experiences, which inhibits from acting upon real emotions.
so often we become disconnected from our hearts.
anywhoo.

stay true,
vuudoo

ps. i hope london drugs calls me back, i need funding for my schemes.

so it begins...

sweet. friday night and feeling distraught. time to kick off this blog.