doubt

why is it sometimes the vision so vivid I can almost reach out and touch it, then coast into a haze where the image is muddled and I find myself lost not even sure why I'm here in the first place. there are times where I'd run a million miles chasing it, then there are times where all I can do is crawl into a ball and not help but feel small and insignifigant.
this is stupid. I don't have energy for doubt. I don't have time for doubt. I shouldn't even have to doubt.
life is short enough as it is.