at a loss for words

for some reason, I can't write what I want to. my mind isn't working with me tonight.
I post because I have thoughts floating in my head that I can't figure out and by putting them into words it lets me see them better. if that made any sense.

I gotta stop doing looking back and seeing what I was doing a year ago. It's getting me all depressed.
I got a long week to think about this one since she's in Europe (hah); Fight or flight? i'm still sick and tired of des femmes yet captivated by une fille.

I really miss my brother, and his phone hasn't worked for a week so we haven't talked. I'm starting to regret not getting a ticket, booking off the week and going off to montreal.

anyways, onward!

ps. my room is such a damn mess. which symbolizes my life quite well.