mgmt - kids

you know, as a kid. you think, grown ups know best, everything in life is fair, nobody is sad and everything works out.

but, as you get older perspectives change, grown ups don't know whats best, everything ain't fair at all, sadness is the easier choice and shit doesn't work out the way you planned.

with this your world is up in the air, you feel scared and sometimes don't know what to do with yourself.

and a brilliant man who had much misfortune and kept his sanity told me, he used the medicine of laughter to get through it all. and I probably will too.

haha.

kurisumasu

it's been a minute since i've put something up. all this snow makes vancouver tricky. we on the south coast of BC are wussies to the white stuff, and 2ft of it = the end of the world. i've been out in it and shovelling snow around the house and is it ever a pain. now with the worst being over(me thinks) whats left to come is what I call dirty slurpee phase. downtown yesterday with ryan, the skytrains being held for what seemed hours. walking around in ERAS was not my brightest moment -.-
ryan mentioned being in downtown christmas eve seemed straight out of a movie and it did. anyways hotdogs on burrard and robson and we were outties.

with it being kurisumasu today means boxing day is tmr.
pumastore has got me for 12:30 to 8:30 so complex has gone down the drain, though I never told them, but they haven't called me since either. it's going to be pure madness tomorrow at work and i've begun mentally prepping myself.
Turns out i'm hitting up livesale once again this boxing day, even though it's been a bit bunk the last couple ones. also I keep ripping my jeans so I'll check the Levi store before work too.

also i'd like to bring to your attention to this holy alliance become blog by two of my friends easy e and rye HERE

so once in awhile I like to empty out my photgraphy medium and put it up to show what I've been up to and I should start doing it more often during my dry blogging spells.


9:44PM December 13th, 2008
A big print of Camilla d'Errico at El Kartel for her release party.


9:46PM December 13th, 2008
My friend Rocky V with his new shirt.


3:01AM December 14th, 2008
The shirt I picked up from the release party. 3M flash hungry, refective goodness... mmm.


11:33AM December 15th, 2008
While cleaning my room I found this effin cool melted bead thing JOY made me at daycare. THANKS AGAIN JOY! i love it.


2:32PM December 21st, 2008
Working Sunday brunch at Horizons I was carrying down some chairs and I spotted our restaurant pet chillin' on the handrail. Jason(named after the server that babies it) lives on top a "J" shaped vent for the last couple months and the poor dove gets picked on by crows. we still debate whether jason is a dove or a white pigeon.


3:01PM December 21st, 2008
Burnaby Mtn park after work, right before me and Gordo go tabogganing on an oval tray from the kitchen.


2:22AM December 25th, 2008
Rye prepared to do some suburban street skiing.



Some snaps of today.

means I won't be going anywhere soon

the Pentax k1000 mr byrne lent me. loaded with black and white film at the moment.

huge pile of sneakers that migrated to my room. this photo also means I gotta clean my room! peep those grey suedes I laced up last night.

me!

flyer I got from the Fight Before Christmas 3. the night ended with a black out(second time for a jam organized by one of the nicest bboys I know mike roc-reeguez) except this time the power didn't come back on so it was cut short. I got a good interview with him and tons of footage. chilled up on stage with flipout who is a nasty dj and also really nice. ALSO thanks to joy once again for making me cookies. GREAT jam with everything there, the vibe, the friends, and the beats. a highlight of the night was thesis and jbugz going on with their exhibition battle and going at it 30 rounds+ in the dark.


merry christmas and hope everyone is well and safe!

happy belated !!

it's was my blog's first birthday on the 7th. a whole year of putting it into words. dooope.

crucial.

mmm...



work at puma is fun. when they said they'd take me under their wing they meant it =).


hm something came into my head recently, what do I look for in a girl?
First I guess I should be asking what i'm looking for.
I want someone to share life with, which can sound huge and you can call me crazy but I mean just enjoy life with, no future plans, no lifelong promises, only someone I can venture through this world with. Someone faithful, has a good sense of reason, and make me want to do better. bonus points if she can make me laugh and smile.
Not going to lie I give off the protective vibe and look after those around me. as much as women these days try to stay independent and a number of them would rather not accept help from their boyfriends thinking he'd rather have it that way. au contrare, guys actually like to feel like the hero and have the girl just collapse in his arms.

not sure where i'm going with this. just that kinda season? anyways I'll stop before this starts sounding like a male-seeking-woman-craigslst-ad -.-


it's been chilly lately. I wonder if her hands are still cold.

blackheat - love the life you live

so you can live the life you love. haha.

i'm happy, not going to lie. puma called on thursday and told me they'd take me under their wing. thats one of two down.
friday, my driving instructor picks me up at 9:45 and he gives me a 2 hour lesson before my test scheduled at 11:45. he says i'm really ready. dope!
I do the test and pass with flying colours, not a single mistake!!


saturday I head up to puma and fill out a pile of paperwork(confidentiality, hours, tax return, application) thats equivalent to joining the SAS. and I get some reading material ^^.

a sobering thought

*sigh* for the moment i'm hopeless. i'm lost.

first of all i've been so damn busy. forgetting this and missing that. always running around and basically running in circles. I'd be thankful if I had any form of routine right now. too bad I adios'd goodbye to that long ago.

I'm not focused. it's true, I have to concentrate and take all this energy running in circles and run a marathon, because time is ticking and june along with that word I dread will signify the end. To me it's easy to relate the play "Our Town" to senior year, people running around pointlessly when they should take a second to look at one another. In other words i'm comparing Graduation(...I said it) to death.

"Oh, [HIGHSCHOOL], you're too wonderful for anybody to realize you!"

After 3rd block mom drove me downtown during my spare for the interview at Puma dressed as so;

Was almost late thanks to downtown traffic and I ended up waiting for Peter(the manager) for about ten minutes. he takes me to the backroom and throws some curveballs; what would you do to prevent theft? and same question except with co-workers and also asked if I thought an employee caught stealing once deserved a second chance. that one I told him straight-forwardly that if trust is compromised, then they cannot be trusted and therefore no good. The questions threw me off a bit and I could've been more firm with my answers. to me, he's came off a bit intimidating, said hours given are based on performance and attitude, and he talked a bit of himself and said he won't be afraid to call you out on your mistakes. he's a nice guy, and we have a chat about puma's huge demographic after the interview in the back room but I can tell he's hesitant. So it's in the air. me, with absolutely no retail experience but with geniune intrest in puma and lots of customer experience. that only gets you so far. I hope I get it, though right now it can go either way. Anyways Peter said he'd give me a call friday.
Friday is also my driving test! 11:45, being picked up by my teacher at 9:45 for a two hour final lesson.
I know I can pass, all I need to do is stay calm.

Tonight was the winter dance showcase, and the younger kids in the bboy club killed it on stage. I'm really proud of what they did tonight. Mostly they're korean and I call them punks and yell at them for being lazy, but to be just, they practice hard. As I did for a period in my life... boy do I miss those days in the old studio where I'd let it spill on the floor, with both double doors wide open, inviting that cold, dark winter air, with little to nobody to practice with. falling out is a horrible feeling and I've seen it happen, figured they'd chosen to fall out, but when life has it's way with you, like it or not.

EDIT: eff that when did I give up without a fight, taking life's reins and telling it to it's face or it's kneecaps. huge reform has GOT to happen.